I’ve been struggling, craving my favorite lover for months. He frustrates me. He is the only partner I’ve been involved with that treats me the way I like. He has this sort of control over me. The only man that confidently swats my ass, takes doesn’t ask, loves anal play to an extreme, borderline rough and dominant ….yet always, always makes sure I’m satisfied and has a warm intimate way about him when we are together. I feel absolutely worshipped by him in his physical presence . I could go on easily. He physically does everything perfect when its time to play. The perfect playdate. No commitments and amazing sex. The problem….he is missing in action in between playtime and I get little to no notice when he’s coming to town..and he disappears for months at a time with zero contact. Anticipating and preparing for a date is part of the pleasure.
Understandably, I am a hotwife. I’m don’t expect commitments exactly. But….finding a really good sexual partner is difficult. I prefer a long term partner like him to continue to push each others envelope over a one night hook up anyday. Plus, it’s safer that way.
I considered looking elsewhere for someone more reliable but I knew the search would be tough. Afterall, he’s the best sex I’ve ever had when it comes to playdates. I’ve had my fair share of dates that were not repeated by choice.
Frustration set in and I finally began looking. I don’t know that I want to cut off my favorite but he’s definitely not keeping me satisfied in between visits. As expected not an easy search. Extremely discouraging actually. I wont elaborate where I search….but profile after profile…..I’m unimpressed. Unattractive, fake, or attractive but lacking any ability to flirt and hold my attention with charm or wit. I finally decided to quit looking for now..the selection was just not there.
Until a few weeks ago. Someone new…messaged my inbox. One guy stood out. He caught my attention with his immediate charm and good looks. His confidence is sexy but not arrogant. Appears he has exactly what I’m seeking. Of course my caution is up…as he seems too good to be true. Ideal really. Since then I’ve spent everyday chatting to some extent. This guy is the first man I’ve contacted since my favorite lover that has made me crave him so quickly. I’m sure I’ll know soon….I think I’ve found exactly what I’ve been looking for and more.